.this is my life.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Sometimes is it just about time?
or is it more than that?
more than that meaning the quality or the quantity?
subconsciously we may think abt the quantity of time spent and not quality..
are we aware of that?
are we aware of the things we are unaware of?

i choose to believe in the quality of time.
but sometimes my hearts tells me not to.
or was it my mind that tells me not to.
That's me being unaware i guess.

sometimes i ask if it has to be a struggle.
did i make it a struggle myself?
or am i really just thinking too much..
is thinking too much really that bad?
are u aware of that?

but i think thinking is good.
think deep think hard. even if it has to go in the wrong direction.
just let it be. why force urself not to think just so coz thinking too much is not healthy?
whoever said that..? that person must have stopped thinking.

thinking deep and hard.
i rather do that.
it's like brainstorming. u trash out everything. the good and the bad.
it's the later part after the trashing out that matters.
do u choose to rationalise the good and the bad or you just indulge in the extremes which most people think is unhealthy.
but is there a right or wrong in going either way?
my stand is no.

what's so healthy and what's so unhealthy?
if at this point of time you are confused by what i am saying, not to worry.
I am just as confused.that's how i am feeling right now.
can't put a finger to it.
but i know everytime it happens it's just a struggle.
sometimes i ask myself why do i find myself in a struggle and do i have to put myself thrg it?
can i stop it from coming? but how?
I tried my best.
it's been a year. can time prove everything?
the quality of time or the quantity of time.?
I am so unaware.

like what my fren wrote on her blog " do i need a disclaimer? No, i guess there's nothing to disclaim about here."
nice one girl. i guess i feel the same way here too.
Let me for once be strong about my own opinions and not care about what others feel or say.
That's so much less tiring.

-chaotagirl with the doubt-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

finally finished all my presentations for this sem!!!

I declare myself officially presentation-free!! :D

Time to post more pics before back to reports and study..

Me making the oreo cheesecake at debs house! see me hard at work making the cheese (: my first cheesecake. and it was for him! it was quite fun making the cheesecake at debs hse.. din noe it was not that difficult as wad i had expected. shall make milo and horlicks flavour or even green tea wan next time!

Donut from Donut factory! Thanx debs for the spicy cheese one that i had too (:

Can't imagine someone can get so happie over donuts except for anisa.. hehee.. power of donut factory.. wowww..

That was my spicy cheese donut! I insisted on taking a pic of it! love the donuts!!

See!!! that's the small mini pocky!! but thgh the choc din taste as nice.. hehe but it was so cute!!

-chaotagirl wants to chew chew-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Monday, March 26, 2007

today is a special day.
though i have tons of work to do, but this entry is a must (:

Happie 1st year mr fishy!

hehe.. knife at the piggy's throat (that's so you!!)

1 year has passed

but i will always be there for you for the rest of your life.

-fishy-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Waikiki'07!! wish rosh-knee and peiying was here with us!! so funn! promise u guys i will load the pics.. it's cominb bit by bit.. starting with waikiki at tanjong beach 2 weeks ago! (:

Me and my shifu.. one of the early 'bert's hehehe.. maybe for him.

we were playing pushball ourselves.. this is really damn fun la!! and we were trying to get alvin to stand on the ball.. like u noe circus kind. hehehe.. crazy us!

somehow i jus dun get it why the guys jus like to be part of our pics like all the time.

somewhere and somehow.

Us! and others not in the pic were probably roaming around.

looks familiar!! check out my march archives! we did this during one of our race.

the guys being playful!

Poseur daniel! our NUM.. hahahhaa..

we exchanged our specs! so cuteee!!

sometimes i understand why pple always say you are never too old.

the dre-gym team!

And we won first in PUshball!! :D yayyssss!!

me and my mr fishy!

trying out my new camera functions.. love this mood! so retro!

love his funny expressi0ns! never failed to make me laugh :D

dexter took this himself. u noe wad i really mean rite. hehehe..

we were helping to let the gas out of the pushball by sitting on it. but joseph ended up sleeping:P

i always called him ah jin in school..he say i am one of the few pple in smu to have a pic with him. is that good or bad? hahaha.. but looks freaking big beside me la..

look at BK's sexy singlet tan!!! but on a serious note he looks really good in NUM singlets. honestly.

oh well.. check out daniel's exp again! hahah..

zhui says his body looks good in this pic.. but erm.. let's jus say i give him the benefit of doubt la huh.. hahaha

that's abt it from me from waikiki!!

look out for more pics soon!

.fishy in a lala-by.

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Saturday, March 10, 2007

这两天.

想念你的心..

虽然有点沉重与不安,

但是也让我从新的认识你. 和我.

也因为这样.

我发现..

我真的爱上你了.

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Sunday, March 04, 2007

finally changed my blogskin!
did it before the new year ends.. hehehe
coz some pple have been sayin that the black butterflies were a bit distracting thgh i thot it was really nice!
but i like the new skin too. coz it's green. and it's simple.
hee (:
will post up pics from my FT dining, db reunion dinner and waikiki soon!
(after i cleared my work that is.. hahaha)
HUAT AH!

.CHAOTA-FIED.

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