Friday, December 30, 2005
really getting gymified..
realised that doin all the weights is quite shiong..
esp the biceps curls!!!
do until the arms like stagnant there..
like vein-popping that kind of feeling..
my hands were still shaking when i was eating my lunch..
back & arms are still aching..
hahaha but i have alwys liked the aching feeling.. X)
feels like someone has massaged the back Kekeke..
quite scared of getting bulky instead of getting toned..
mus start eating lesser n healthier food now.. if not later become super big
scary.. eeww..
it's official!!
Dragonboaters are given permission to do chin-ups in the gym without being properly attired..
meaning that we dun we have to be in shirt n shorts..
but shoes are still necessary..
think it's gonna take some time for us to adjust n prob for the rest of the peeps in the sch to adjust too..
can u imagine girls wear until nice nice then do chin-ups in the gym?
Hahahaha sounds like peifen :'P
was thinking of wearing slippers to sch this comin sem lar Hahaha
more airy wad..keke..
now my plan pao4 tang1 liao.. have to think of sth else..
realised chin-ups are super hard than compared to doin weights..
dun noe whether it's becoz my arms are tired frm doin all the weights or wad..
but still mus try lar huh.. :")
so sad.. :(
we had to split our team into 2 in order to train in the gym..
thgh the gym has super good facilities n is said to be better than the california one..
but it's kind of small to accomodate the whole team.. plus we still have to consider other peeps who are using it..
so in the end we still have to split..
me jus hope that all the gym trg will be effective :)
luv the choc that roshni brought back frm russia!!
marshmallow choc.. berry white choc.. taste really different from those we have in spore..
wonder if they have it at candy empire..
feels like having dark choc!! been a long time since i ate one .. keke
ohh.. my teammates like my jiu ceng gao!!..
they say it's nice..
surprisingly ben says it's better than bengawan..coz he dun say such nice things..
at least to me .. hahahhahahaha
glad they like it :")
hopefully it's not becoz they are hungry after trg..
coz u noe things alwys taste good when u are hungry Hee..
Mr Tea is here!! right here at SESS!! woohoo..
i am a tea person!! hahahaa.. glad it's smart enuff to locate at my territory!!
luv teh tarik n teh bieng!!
mus have caught it frm my dad..
he drinks damn alot of tea..
like everyday can?!! Hahaaha..
yay!! sth i can look forward to when sch starts..
Having mixed feelings abt sch thgh..
been hearing peeps around me toking abt it.. n most of them are quite worried..
hah.. GPA n all the stuff..
guess everything's gonna start afresh n new..mayb that's y pple are afraid..
coz we need to start to adjust to new profs new mods again..
been thinking abt it now n then too..
jus started teaching tuition..
wonder if i can handle it plus 2 CCAs at the same time..
sometimes heartache sia ( sim tiarh. kekeke) for me to make sacrifices coz of all my commitments..
but hmm ..currently i still can incorporate everything into my schedule..sounds busy.. hahaaha..
heck liao..dun think le.. the more i think it wun helps too
take one step at a time...
jus use my chao-ta spirit to fight off all obstacles!!
sounds like wad some superheroes wld say in cartoon "superman saves the world!" kekekekekekeke
LOL* hand over mouth-HOM*
Feels super satisfied i am enjoyin whatever i am doin now..
that's more impt rite *wink*
at least i have no regrets in future!! :")
Plus i have kakis to whack thrg next sem with me.. rite cip & amadeo?!! HEhehe
miss u guys!!!
.CHAOTA-FIED.
Thursday, December 29, 2005
thot it was more appropriate to separate this entry frm the previous one..
different mood :)
did some editing on one of my previous entries yest..
wonder if that's the right thing to do..
sometimes.. when emotions get better of u..
the things that u write can get a little out of hand..
n when u read it again... it feels a little silly Hehehe
haha laughing at my sillyness XP
so i decided to delete some parts.. changed it a little..
but then again it sort of destroyed the feelings n emotions i felt when i was writing that particular entry..
it kind of feels 'immoral' to edit previous entries.. as in content wise..
sort of lose the main motive of bloggin which is to write dwn the 1st hand account of ur feelings..
now after changing it.. it becomes secondary.. am i right to say that..
but then again.. i felt more comfortable with the edited entry.. hah
so that shld be more impt rite..
like wad someone said to me..
there are still some things u would wanna keep it to urself..
not wanting the whole world to noe abt it..
now i realised wad it means..
guess i shld still let myself enjoy this small little privilege :")
was reading a book called 'The smallest things make the biggest difference' by Ray Haring..
( while i was making the kueh. needed to kill time.. n forget abt the tedious process..)
halfway thrg now.. this book is quite uplifting..
say...
The Art of Making Friends:
The only way to have a friend is to be a friend
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
this is for a friend who had doubts abt it... n asked me yest.
hope he's able to cross his barrier :)
ohh.. found sth nice aso..
Stop looking for happiness:
Happiness is an elusive, transitory thing. And if u set out to search for it. you will find it evasive. But if you try to bring happiness to someone else, then it comes to you
- Napoleon Hill
hahaha mayb i shld stop looking for my happiness X)
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i am a happie girl today!! Kekekeke..
my dad praised my cooking!!! for the 1st time!!
made jiu ceng gao ( this rainbow-coloured nonya kueh.. can tear off piece by piece wan) today..
my dad says i can make the kueh n sell it liao.. HEhehe
me fly to the sky liao..
of coz in front of him i have to stay calm.. n pretend that my kueh is normal.. mus be humble mah.. cannot too hao lian hehehe
but it made my day :")
i am bringing a box for my teammates 2mr during trg..promise peiying that i will make it for her ( she better see this!! XP)
my fried mars bars was a success too!! made it yest.
it was kinda on impulse.
bought all the ingredients.. was set to make it on another day..
but couldn't wait HeheHe
SUPER nicey!!
crispy on the outside..
n when u put the whole piece of fried mars bars in ur mouth..
the melted choco n caramel jus oozed out..gosh..
would have been better if there's vanilla ice cream ( my fave!!) to go with..
Hehehehe
rem the first thing we had when we 1st went out was fried mars bars..
they have it at far east B1.. besides the shilin snacks..
it was super goodie.. both of us jus concetrate on chewing the mars bars hahahaha
thgh it was unhealthy.. fattening.. heaty.. but wadever ..we din care..
it's good to indulge in good food occasionally :") mayb not really occasionally ahhaha
thgh i din eat it again after that..
was surprised to find the recipe online.. hahhaaha
wanted to make some for my team..but we only get to eat it after trg
n it's better to eat it when it's hot n crispy..later cold then nua nua.. not nice liao..
mayb wait till some other gatherings in some peeps'hse.. then can make again..
anyway it's pretty simple..
aiyah got jiu ceng gao to eat good already hah :"]
it's an honour to eat chao ta's food Hehehe
.CHAOTA-FIED.
Wednesday, December 28, 2005
Getting gymified..haha :"]
luv the music there..(that's y i dun wear earphones while watching the tv on treadmill.. n pls arh.. i am not mouth-reading kae.. hahha jus that i preferred the music that's all :) )
realised that i dun really watch the tv when i am on the treadmill..
find it a little giddy to be staring dwnwards.. preferred to look forward..
plus can see my own reflection in the glass panel..Hehehe ( this is not zi lian okae)
was surprised to see zhui on duty for the 2nd day straight haha..
Is goin to gym alone really that boring?? Hehehehe..
coz a few pple asked me that..
for me i don't think so..
sometimes i kind of enjoy it :)
coz the only time u get to tok with frens is when u are catching ur breath or resting between exercises.. which is minimal..
plus usually even if u are with frens u tend to still go ahead to do ur own set of exercises.. it's not like everyone will do the same..
so i don't mind goin alone.. hahha
it's jus like watching movie alone.. i tried it before..once.. hahaha thot it'll be fun..
jus find urself a seat. armed with a popcorn n drink.. then it's movietime..
i still rem. that time was during the A n O level's exam period..
so there's only like 5 peeps in the whole cinema including me..
it feels good to sort of have the whole cinema to myself ( i mean treating the other 4 to be invisible :P)
but it was freaking freaking COLD!! Plus mus find the correct timing to chew on the popcorn .. which is during action pacts scenes.. if not it's quite paiseh to hear the 'eating- popcorn' sound during quieter scenes..hahahaha
back to the gym Hehehe..( i divert quite easily.. :P)
tried all my fav machines..
the abs.. the seated leg press.. the back extension..
the one luv-ed most is the TOrso!!
it's SUPER SHIOK! the feeling arh.. kaoz.. Hehehe
ohh DK Keith Audy were there too.. so qiao..
DK mentioned that the hips abducion machine quite obscene.. coz the legs mus open big big n close back .. so it's a repetitive action.. but it's effective! it works on the thighs n butt area..
think girls will luv that machine..
me n audy became their guinea pigs la.. coz zhui n the rest were coming up with the set of ex we can do in the gym..
so we had to test it out.. nv lift so many weights in my whole life..
can feel a bit of the ache now..but i like the suan suan the feeling hahaa
was taking train home frm cityhall..
kind of wondering y the train operation was stopped temp..
then i saw the news when i reached home..
gosh.. y pple like to fall onto our train tracks??
lucky i din go home immediately after lunch.. if not most likely i will be on the train that hit him?? ewww.. shivers..
let's tok abt happier stuff :")
had my virgin mahjong session yest!! at peiling's hse..
it was mahjong 101 hahaha aka. MJ 101
was there to watch teckwee william audy n peiling show their skills.
thgh i noe a bit of the basic. but i sure need to pay additional "course fees" if i play with them..
all the lao jiao.. hahhaaha
but it was fun to chap ji kar when peiling went for toilet breaks hahhaa.. played for a few rounds.. fun n mind-blogging.. i like..
plus not my money mah Hehehehehe..
best of all the mahjong session comes in a package!! Hehehe
peiling's mum cooked lunch for us!!
SUPER nice!!! she fast fast can whip up a few dishes.. impressed sia..
besides that virgin mahjong session with them..
we had virgin KTV session!!!
me teckwee audy peiling .. k-lunch on xmas eve..
damn hilarious to be with teckwee n peiling lar..ultimate jokers sia..
sing until quite shiok..not enuff after 4 hrs hahaha wan more!!
thgh we kena 'cheated' $24 for a jug of lemon tea?!!!
i think coz xmas mah.. that's y more exp.. but still it's super ex..
had fun so nvm hahaha.
looking forward to the next one!! :")
.CHAOTA-FIED.
Me n lele!! together with buds frm JC.. boxing day!! We ate frm 5-930pm lar.. dun noe wad we doin aso.. Hehehe.. more pics coming along.. :").CHAOTA-FIED.
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Out with my buds a week b4 christmas.. lights at centrepoint the nicest!! got M&Ms hahha i like! can u imagine i had to like wait for my turn to stand on this platform in the pic. there was this cute little girl b4 me.. then me being so nice ... waited PATIENTLY for my turn.. coz the girl was posing like a model lar..sometimes lifting her nice little pink dress slightly..posing with her hands .. so many shots :") but i got a nice pic. so i dun mind. it was worth it..
din noe it would be that fun taking pics in town. eating 50cents ice cream along the way.. we even popped by gucci boutique( it was having a sale i think) - it's not everyday u dare to walk into this high-end shops.. got stunned by all the prices.. as usual over pricey stuff..bumped into a fren i nv see for 3 yrs! did funny poses.. climb 'dangerous' steps to get closer to the display.. u shall see more later.. :)
ohh!! thankie daryl for the redbull singlet!! luv it!!! been wanting to get one for dun noe how long :)
trying to find a heineken singlet now.. do tell me if u guys found one kae!!
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My kakis cum buddies frm econs!! Luv them to the core!! What will i do without them n my durian ice cream ( which is wad i am holding in the pic)?!! :")
(credits to sarah for the collage hahaha me can't upload mine collage)
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superb day today!!
a day to catch up with my dear frens :)
thgh we are all in the same faculty..
but we dun seem to have the time to meet up in sch..hah :P
it was great toking at the fountain..
tok abt everything under the sun or erm moon Hehe.. jus the four of us.
din noe we had that much to tok abt.
haha oops.
was expecting that we weren't be hanging ard that long..
but we end up toking on n on..
i luv it..
thot it was great to share our thots..
din realised we all faced similar problems..
great to noe that. :") good to have peeps on the same boat as u hahhaha
and as always... it's good to spit it out.
din realised that fountain of wealth was the largest fountain in the world till now lar.
wad the *toot* hahaha
out of the 4 of us..3 of us write blogs..
was telling them abt the irony part of writing a blog..
me was initially afraid that people will look at me in a different light..
as in.. sometimes from the way u write a blog.. u may portray urself as a different person from who u actuallly are in front of frens..
n i feel that i am someone like that..
frens who noe me "on the surface".. noe that i am the happy-go-luck kind.. or princess haha ... Hehehe :D
prob only frens who noes me really well noes me really well.. hahahaa
they see the different sides of me..
was afraid that people might see me as a different person after reading my blog..
like wad my fren said : sometimes it's really too personal to write it on the blog.
but somehow i managed to convince myself that..
it doesn't matter anyway..
it would be better for others to noe the real 'u' then to jus noe u frm the surface..
it's then up to them whether they still accept the way u are..
something my fren said which i thot was really true..
usually when we write blogs..we are always on our own.. so it's inevitable that our blogs will seem a little sad n lonely.. it's normal..
i jus realised.. the reason why i have been against writing blogs is because i din wanna let others noe that the times when i felt low..
i always wanted others to see the bright side of me.. the optimistic side..
usually i kept all the negative sides to my closest frens..
but there are jus too many frens ( too popular lar.. Hehehe .. cip.alvin . sarah is goin to roll their eyes hehehe as always :P)
kind of tedious to repeat everything again n again..
not that blogging saves all the explanations n elaborations..
but at least it saves me frm repeating myself again n again..
by jus portrayin myself as someone positive.. i guess i am not doin myself justice..
i have got to be 'me'..
since i hate to be pessimistic.. (coz it will jus dampen everyone else's mood)
it's fairly acceptable to jus blog it instead..
but dun worry guys.. i am not tryin very hard to be optimistic k..
coz i am already one. hahaha dun need to try.. :")
hope that frens who dun really noe me.. can get use to the other side of me.. hahhaah
had a wonderful time tonite.. besides the D24 durian flo frm new zealand ice cream..which was satisfying after a ok only chicken curry rice at genki. nothing can beat the one at curry flavour yet thgh.. :)
thankie sarah clar n de wei!! u guys are great!! :") dun noe y i am jus sooo comfy with u guys ard..thgh we like only noe each other thrg econs og..
hahahha it's prob fate lar..cliche but true.. :)
lookin forward to our sushi buffet!! n k-lunch!
special thanks to de wei.. for accompanying me home.. coz my hse quite ulu.. got urh-bu nei Hehe oops.. :P
even thgh i insisted i dun need it.. (since it's not the latest i have gone home alone..)
but he persisted.. ok lor.. let him show his gentlemanly side..
dun say i nv give u chance lor.. hahaha
but he's one of the few i noe who send peeps home.. but too bad girls..
he's not available liao.. Hehehe.. but nvm lar.. i am sure there are better catch out there..
n de wei.. i still believe guys dun have good sense of direction :P
.CHAOTA-FIED.
Monday, December 26, 2005
Luv running coz that's when i start thinking abt many things and everything :)
Jus pondering abt everything that happened to me allows me to not think abt my aching thighs..
sometimes that's how i destress..
that's how i start evaluating myself and others..
that's how i get new inspirations.. hahaha which erm.. don't come that often :")
as usual.. jus finished my run..
was waiting for the traffic light to turn green..
started thinking again..
a few days back.
was trying to do henna on my own.
had to mix this powder thingy with tea.
poured the tea into the bowl first..
then added in the powder..
before i knew.. i realised it was a stupid move hah.
my dad reminded me: it's jus like baking cake or cookies.. u always add the flour first before the milk..if not, the amount of powder u use will be more than what u actually need, then u will be left with excess mixture. wasted.
hahaha..hmmm.. why din i think of it...
found the answer to my question today while waiting for the lights to change..
sometimes when things become too routine..
like when we kept following recipes .. instructions.. manuals
it never crossed our mind to realise why there's such a procedure to everything like say baking a cake..
we never asked why we had to add flour before the milk..
or maybe at least for me .. Hee :")
I only knew the reason until i did it the other way round.
Point taken.
don't take things like the way it is..
pay more attention to minor things :")
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realised my fonts are super biggie.. hehe.. but i like it :)
sometimes the fonts in other blogs are kinda small.. me can't stand it ..
but hey no offense yar.. it's ..er .. erm.. personal preference.. that's how u put it..
Realised that i picked a perfect blog template for myself..
luv the colours.. retro..
n wad's more.. my fav green n orange ( peeps who noes me noes how i luv this 2 colours..)
was looking for gold.. can't find it.. too lazy to come up with my own template..
today's.. or mayb yest's.. i mean on xmas' day is one of the days i sent out the most smes..
xmas greetings..
jus thot it will be nice to send it to peeps i have nv kept in touch for some time..
n aso erm.. check out the response..
( coz i was kinda touched to receive like 6 smses at one shot in the morn. greetings frm frens whom i nv tok to for a few mths. hah *grinz*)
was kinda glad that some peeps responded hahhaa.. thgh actually come to think of it there's no need to lar.. ( coz if i were in ur position i prob wun reply.. hurhur.. gotcha :P)
but it's all for the fun rite..
hmmm..
there's jus this particular reply that i was waitin for..
waiting .. waiting.. n waiting..
even thgh i knew i shldn't be expecting a reply.. or mayb i already knew..
but i chose to send the sms anyway..
it was the same sms greeting that i sent to everyone..
except that it was a tad special..
it ended with sth like '~CTG :")' - (btw that's my fav smiley)
u can make a quick guess wad CTG means .. u prob get it faster than me..
i din noe wad it means when he came up with that acronym..
him n his acronyms.. i'm forever guessing wad they all means..
n getting teased for not getting it XP
thot it will be sth close to the heart when i ended with that erm.. line?
but it meant nothing else.. jus a simple greeting frm a fren that's all..
well a different kind of fren mayb..
that's the thing abt me.. i think too much sometimes..
makes me so sensitive to pple's actions.. it kinda affects my thoughts too..
thgh i dun show it. hah :)
said we'll be frens.. mayb damn good frens.. blurdy good t*amat* :D
i am serious abt being frens thgh.. not crossing the line.
was expecting something different after we decided to let go..
or mayb i shldn't..
too many thoughts rushing thrg my mind now..
can't put it dwn..
but i think u get it...
wanna tok to u yest. when u were online.
was waiting for u to start the conversation..
in the end u din. then i din. i jus signed out instead.
our "dao-in"game. hah.
u noe i'v alwys tok abt ur "dao-ness". hahaha
i jus din wanna give in.. not the 1st time.. not this time..
guess we are both stubborn pple .
which is bad. coz they say it's alwys better to have one giving in.
but who's they anyway hahahha..
follow my heart.. someone said..
i noe i din wanna be the one.
that's y i was willing to let go.partly. mayb mainly.
time. guess everyone needs that.
ur trip gave me time to think.
to be myself.
to be independent again.
that's y i din miss u that much like i used to. hah.
despite everything ..u left me with much more nicer memories. fortunately. X)
wanna tok to u again.. abt everything that happened when u were not ard.
like i used to.
but this time it's slightly different.
hope there's less suan-ing n less stepping-on-each-other-toes like b4 u left :)
anyway i've learnt not to rush things..
trying to keep n treat things simple. apparently i have failed on the latter. hahaha
waiting for next trg.
getting sleepy ...
1.57 am.. ( can't adjust the time )
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Hmmm.
wad shld i say. hahaha
alwys been telling myself that blogging is goin to be the last thing that i would ever done in my life. in fact, i was alwys wondering y these peeps have so many things to write abt n better still they wanna let everyone noe..
so y i am i bloggin now? Hehe.. post-christmas impulse? mayb. had a little too much ? mayb.
there's jus so much things i wanna spit out.. that's wad i realised.
too bad it's at u. hah.
Happie belated Merry Christmas!! ( if that existed.. :P)
P.S: wadever lar.. u'r supposed to accept wad i spit out, rem? :")
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