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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts.You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary.But you sure can beat a good drum."Kill! Kill!"

The Muppet Personality Test

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Sunday, October 22, 2006

i am just so glad everything's over.
and i feel really bad that he had to go through it too.
or maybe we had to go through it.
we were both hurt in the process..
but i am beginning to understand the idea of growing in a relationship.
growing together.

i see my naiveness.
i see my stubbornness.
i see my mental weakness.
i see my flaws.
But i am beginning to see him in the picture too.
a bigger picture.

both of us have a fair share of what it's going to take to bring us to a higher level in our relationship.
and i so much want to do my part. coz he meants alot to me.
i guess we are going to work towards it together.
it's not easy but i will take it in greater strides this time (':

-Fishy. always fishing for him. growing up-
(P.S: to those who were there for me, thanx for closing my'tap' and being there. you guys are really nice.)

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

sometimes i don't know if people get tired.
coz i know that there are people who really are tired deep down but they might not want to admit it.
and i hate to admit that i might just be one of them.

it's not that we want to be gung-ho and just look strong mentally on the outside.
but i guess it's more of the fear of facing it and realising that we have to face it.
coz tiredness just makes u feel low.. like everything around you is wearing you out.
and it's like you don't know if it's going to take you as much as the last time you feel tired to be back on track again..

sometimes i don't want to admit that i am tired coz it seems like i shouldn't be as i pretty much enjoyed doing what i am doing now..
but sometimes this 'tiredness'just creeps up on you coz actually it's been subconsciously suppressed all the time. or maybe suppressed intentionally.
but then again it also depends on what context this 'tiredness' is all about.

some 'tiredness' just comes back to you again and again.
and i always wish it will be resolved one day.
i am probably the only one who can resolve it though i am always seeking for answers from others.
or maybe i am just looking for someone who shares the same 'tiredness' as me so i can hug him/her and just be happy we found company.
sounds quite sad rite.. hehe..

although i know i probably have found the answer and solution to my 'tiredness'..
but sometimes i wish this repetitive 'tiredness' will make me tired out one day such that i probably get immuned to it or something.
hmmm...

sometimes..
people always like to say 'are you taking me for granted?'
but has it even occur to them that they should ask themselves the same question too?
i think more than often we like to question people about certain issues but sometimes we forgot to put ourselves in other people's shoes and to question ourselves first.
is it fair to put across such a statement when we ourselves cannot do it too?
i don't think alot of people can be that rational.

maybe i should start loving myself more.
just don't bother. don't think. don't mind.
i think i will be happier and accept 'tiredness' readily.

-chaotagirl. random thoughts while on the train home.time: 1140pm-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Monday, October 16, 2006

my cute little cousin.. i mean nephew..(TK jus corrected me.. i shouldn't call them little cousins.. they are actually all my little nephews n nieces.. hehe)

more pics of the 'innocent'girl ( that's wad my bro calls her.. (:)

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

my cousin's wedding today. went for the tea ceremony just now.saw my other little cousins. so adorable! she's so pretty looking rite? so doll-like.. btw she looks like she's about to cry rite..but i think it's jus that this forlorn look on her face which i seldom see in small children. should see her when she smile (: sweet.

All the kids were playing some games or something. brought my digi cam but apparently the new batts are out of batts. (sound confusing.. think din charge properly) but my dad says he's prob getting a video cam for our taiwan trip..weee.. so looking forward to that. coz i think our digi cam is like quite lau pok le.. hehehe. lucky my hp have cam.. :D

see his hairy eyebrows.. for those guys out there who want sideburns don't be sadden to know that this boy has sideburns too! he's really fun to play with though.. super active..

my paparazzi act again.. hehehehe.. secretly taking little children's pics.

My really really active niece... always running about and playing with the other kids. she's another pretty girl!

this is what i deemed as a pretty boy. he's got a bit of ang-moh-ish look rite.. though he looks kind of stun-ned in the pic. mus be thinking why this jie jie kept going around to take little children's pics..

haven seen him for sometime and he's becoming a little chubby chubby.. reminds me of my tuition kid. heee ^^") he's still as mischievous though anyway.. he was caught in the act drinking cold drinks though his dad forbidded him not to do so... hee.. can go blackmail him liao..

so fun seeing the kids's running around playing at the stairs.. reminds me of the time when i was like time. playing hide and seek at the void deck whenever we visit our grandparents.. running around in the house.. getting scolded by parents for getting dirty and all sweaty..

- Wish i was so young once again :") -ChaotaGirl-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Friday, October 13, 2006

Before i go on into anything else..
i mus show off my new toy!! *weeeeee
Pls put your hands together to welcome *drum rolls*
Lamby!!!!

It's this 'angel & mortal'game that we played among the ambassadors ourselves. And my angel is so nice!! hehehe.. she got me this lamb which i was eyeing everytime i walked past this gift shop at raffles city. thought it's so adorable. coz it has this small beady eyes! hehehe.. thank you Zing! feel quite paiseh.. coz she got me such a nice gift though i din have time to write back to the first letter that she gave to me. (partly due to me not being able to access the asmu room too.. toopid card..). but i got her this 'boing boing'thingy with a bumble bee attached to it. so cute! but i have yet got a chance to give her yet. hopefully next week!

so.. lambie is my new addition to my toyie family! *yippie* From the left is beary( in plastic.. it's a free gift frm the insurance agency coz my dad jus bought dec tour tix to taiwan for the whole family.. hee), tiggery, girly & Beany ( mr bean's bear), santy and lamby!! too bad spongy and giraffy are mr fishy's nephew's toys.. if not i would hv added them to my toyie family. hehehe

mus show this really cute ultraman lantern from mid-autumn festival! my dad got this from a temple that he went to. and when the light is on.. the ultraman glows in blue and those small little things around it too! i think it's still hanging outside my room.

stumble upon this cute dog in one of my pics folder. it's really really really really cute!!! want it for myself.. hehehe.. coz it has small beady eyes..i love it! too bad my parents wun agree on me getting one if not i would have searched for this breed in spore.

will upload pics of my 'hopefully-can-get-it'new house soon! yippie!! coz still in the process of waiting for the balloting results. i went to see the showflats the other day with my dad and i love the house too!

watched sponge bob movie with mr fishy yesterday! and they are so hilarious... hehee i was practically laughing throughout the whole movie thgh they look real silly but i still love patrick and his 'has-a-little-bit-of-hair' stomach.. hehehe.

wanted to go chomp pang and eat nasi lemak yesterday nite for supper. but when i reached there, i had really bad pain in the stomach. then i couldn't eat. jus sat there drinking hot milo. so poor thing rite. went all the way there le and was sooooo looking forward to eat. toopid stomach. nvm! i will make a comeback soon :P

hmm.. less than 3 days left before breaks end. and i dun wan it to end so soon!!

-ChaotaGirl has a new lamby!-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

sophie aka phie phie 's 21st bdae on 7/10 (sat)
some of us went down to eski bar to celebrate with her after trg..

i haven't been there before myself.. mayb coz it's all the way at holland V!
and i am a Eastie (so proud to say that.. hehehe)
lucky alvin ( one of my new teammate) drove us from bishan.. so quite convenient.
and why was i at bishan.. coz i met up with my freshies from my OG!!
yayy! finally had time to meet up with them (: even for a short while.. hehe..
but it's enuff for me to enjoy their company very much! wish i could have stayed longer...

some of the girls from the team!! birthday girl is in black (:

some guys from our team (:

me and phie phie! :D

me and peiying. she got her braces removed! hehehe.. reminds me of myself last time when i took off my braces.. liberation i tell u! and finally i can eat many many peanuts, cashew nuts and almonds! happie for her.. can take nice nice pics aso!anyway all this pics are from her cam. mus give her credit!

me and my da jie (girls'captain).. peiying evil lo.. wanted to take a shot of our hum ji peng face.. why hum ji peng.. it's a long story.. hahhaa tell u all more next time :P

Me and jun jun (: we always teased each other de.. hehe

me and cheryl. we've been pacing together for 2 days.. and i realised we can work well together. hehe (: pacing can be so much fun too!! without her encouragment .. her 'haiz' think i will not be able to push myself so hard...

that's DK! the guy who planned everything.. so sweet rite (:

thot reuben looks funny in this shot.. hehehe..random shot taken by me. hahha! thanks to him n cheryl.. i got a ride home back to the east.. that was a super big detour rite.. so nice of them!

too bad mr fishy wasn't there coz he had to rush his project )': poor thing. but there's still more outings next time! (:

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Yayyyy!! *yippie* whistle blowing* poppers popping*
the soooooo- not-tech savvy chaotaGirl.. unlike her Mr fishy :P
managed to revamp her bloggie!!! after so long.. wahaha
more *yippies*yayyyysss*

and special thanks to Mr spencer ( Shorn)!!
who came to my rescue in the middle of the nite to clear my doubts on changing blogskin.
somemore he was on busy mode that nite. You're the man!
( though i ended up not using the blogskin that i was asking him about.. *bleah*)

and many thanks to my bro, wilson whose constant suaning of me being lousy at IT stuff ( coz he is info system kia..) kind of gave me that determination to change my blog. so much so for being my bro :P

but i always been wanting to change my blogskin. not that i dun like it.
but i wanted something that i am really comfy with. not that i am not comfy with my 'ex-blog'.
ohh.. wad am i saying.. hehehe..
i just wanted a blog that's really me.

and i love this one.
shall stick with it for long like my hotmail add. it stuck with me for almost 9 years.
my hotmail add brings memories u noe..
and this blog too. (: in about 2 months'time.. it will be one year old!!
so it's a good timing to revamp it after it being through thick n thin with me.. hehee (:

plain & simple.
that's something i have always like.
or mayb it's something me.
simple girl. just not plain :")

black & white.
so i can add colours to it.
( which means i am going to post many many pics to brighten it up :D)
life's colourful!

Greatest Satisfaction for the day (besides 'the' revamp):
Finally managed to sit down and have 2 proper meals with my family for the day.
And for once they suffered under one of my many 'cold' jokes during dinner :P

-Chaota Cheerios from ChaotaGirl-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

today is the last day of my tuition.
By tomorrow malcom would have finished his science paper.
which means my duty as his tuition teacher will end there too.

hmm.. been teaching him since december...
that's like almost 10 months.
well it's not really a very long period of time compared to other people who have been teaching their kids for like years.
but somehow i grown attached to him. unknowingly.
and i only realised it today. my last day of tuition.

i was telling mr fishy .. don't know whether i should be sad or happy.
sometimes it's really madness.. rushing from school after class to tuition in tampines then back school again for training or projects.
and i can't believe that i managed to stay this mad for 10 months.

i think maybe because i really like teaching him.
not that i like teaching very much..
i know it's not my cup of tea..
but i think it's the kid that makes the difference.
everytime after tuition, i ended feeling very good and happie :") no matter how bad my day was before tuition.
sometimes it's those silly little things that he does that amuses me very much like he likes to toy with eraser dust, kneadable eraser, staples, magnets.. stuff like that.
sometimes he likes to show me his latest 'gadget' which he keep it away from his mum..
sometimes he likes shows me the many guppies in his fish tanks which he is quite proud of.. (can imagine the glow on his face.. hehehe)
and i actually learnt quite a bit of interesting facts on fishes from him too.
oh.. not forgetting that sometimes he says really cold jokes.. so just like me. hahaha..

somehow i found it a little hard to say to him that today is the last day of tuition.
i think he didn't think that i might not be teaching him anymore in the future.
he actually told his mum that he still wants me to teach him and he don't want other tuition teachers.
that was really really touching to hear.
coz all the while i know i am not really that good enough. i just try my best.
it was hard to realise that i will not see this cute, a little chubby boy anymore. at least not that frequent. quite enjoying teaching him tuition. )':
oh well... i still thinks he deserves to get a tuition teacher who can devote more time in teaching him.. so i can really concetrate on school stuff.
so glad he loves the present that i got for him. ( coz his birthday is this coming friday)
'1001 interesting facts' something that will get him all hype up. haha :D

and not forgetting his mum's cooking!
she makes really good muah chee, curry veggie, laksa and many more that she offered whenever i come for tuition.
will miss the food.
but i think i will miss him more. really nice kid.
it's a surprise that people can grow so attached to each other within such a short span of time.
or maybe it's just me. hee.

-chaotaGirl. with mixed feelings.-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Saturday, October 07, 2006

Love Patrick as much as Gamzadori :' )

(P.S: chaotaGirl's current wallpaper)

(P.S2: Btw he is a potato)

.CHAOTA-FIED.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Much awaited IMF Pics

11th Sep-20th Sep 2006

With Mr Rodrigo De Rato, Chairman of IMF. Wensi n Diana!

Mr De Rato's bodyguard. who loves drinking diet coke that cost 2 bucks per can.

Level 6. where i worked. IMF office (:

I kind of like this man- made elevator. it's damn cool la. allows transportation within 2 floors. blew me away. force them to take a pic inside the lift. hahaha.