Thursday, October 19, 2006
sometimes i don't know if people get tired.
coz i know that there are people who really are tired deep down but they might not want to admit it.
and i hate to admit that i might just be one of them.
it's not that we want to be gung-ho and just look strong mentally on the outside.
but i guess it's more of the fear of facing it and realising that we have to face it.
coz tiredness just makes u feel low.. like everything around you is wearing you out.
and it's like you don't know if it's going to take you as much as the last time you feel tired to be back on track again..
sometimes i don't want to admit that i am tired coz it seems like i shouldn't be as i pretty much enjoyed doing what i am doing now..
but sometimes this 'tiredness'just creeps up on you coz actually it's been subconsciously suppressed all the time. or maybe suppressed intentionally.
but then again it also depends on what context this 'tiredness' is all about.
some 'tiredness' just comes back to you again and again.
and i always wish it will be resolved one day.
i am probably the only one who can resolve it though i am always seeking for answers from others.
or maybe i am just looking for someone who shares the same 'tiredness' as me so i can hug him/her and just be happy we found company.
sounds quite sad rite.. hehe..
although i know i probably have found the answer and solution to my 'tiredness'..
but sometimes i wish this repetitive 'tiredness' will make me tired out one day such that i probably get immuned to it or something.
hmmm...
sometimes..
people always like to say 'are you taking me for granted?'
but has it even occur to them that they should ask themselves the same question too?
i think more than often we like to question people about certain issues but sometimes we forgot to put ourselves in other people's shoes and to question ourselves first.
is it fair to put across such a statement when we ourselves cannot do it too?
i don't think alot of people can be that rational.
maybe i should start loving myself more.
just don't bother. don't think. don't mind.
i think i will be happier and accept 'tiredness' readily.
-chaotagirl. random thoughts while on the train home.time: 1140pm-
.CHAOTA-FIED.
