Tuesday, September 05, 2006
something's wrong with the school msn..
din wan to believe it when my fren told me until today..
anyway..while waiting for it to connect.. thot i could do a bit of blogging (:
was talking to sarah online the other day..
she says when 2 people get very comfortable with each other, they have a tendency to show their vulnerable side..
hmm.. i guess she jus summed up wad i was tryin to say of figure out in the last entry.
i kind of understand what others used to say a honeymoon period thingy in a relationship..
i used to have doubts in it..
well i still do.. but i am beginning to get what these people are trying to say..
not that they are right.. but either are they wrong..
i always dun like the idea of of believing in this honeymoon period thingy..
coz i feel it seems to sound degrading..
and i still believe that when 2 people get together.. the feeling is still so magical X)
however, like this people i can't find a better word to describe the first few months of a relationship other than 'honeymoon'
or rather i choose not to 'segregate' a relationship into like a timeline thing.
because no one can ever predict what can happen in a relationship.
and i still believe that the magical feeling of being together will still continue regardless of whether it's like months into the relationship or years.
One thing i kind of realised that humans are controlled by their own emotions or even the other way round.
somehow emotions control our actions esp on how we treat other people..
even getting into a relationship it's determined by your emotions. your feelings.
And i trust my feelings alot.
But i also realised that when your emotions or your feelings get better of you, you might have an internal struggle within yourself.
you may even lose your rationality.
Like you know you shouldn't be angry and if you actually look at his/her point of view, they are actually not at fault. but still you choose to remain angry.
Like you know you shouldn't be so stubborn and you could gladly make the first move. but still, you choose to remain stubborn.
Like you know what you are going to do next is going to drive him/her crazy. but still, you choose to remain ignorant.
i think that's when we really lose control of ourselves.
i guess the only way to prevent ourselves from falling into such trap is to really think positive. And hopefully have something to distract yourself.
I didn't realised i fell into the trap too.
luckily it wasn't deep. could still pick myself up before things got out of hand.
But i am not sure if there are others who just keep on falling into it, thinking that they have already gotten out of it but they have not.
sometimes we should not be too bother if situations arises and altered the things that we are so used to having..
sometimes change can just be superficial and not real..
sometimes we just need to be a little bit more patient with ourselves and we can probably still see the rainbow after the rain (:
so glad that i have seen something in me which i need to work on after this small little silly incident.
at least it has made me see much more.
>(((:) happie ChaotaGirl swimming in the ocean once again.
love u.
.CHAOTA-FIED.
