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Friday, May 19, 2006

happish me (:
hee.

thought he's only going to be back on Sunday.
But he popped by during yesterday's training.
well i had an intuition he might come coz he mentioned the day before.
But i wasn't sure coz he said he will call. but he din.
ended up that it was supposed to be a surprise.
great that he turned up.
seriously got me a little high during trg.
coz before that i felt like nua-ing there in the gym. hahaha :P oops

Love u dear! (X
Being with u..
though it was only for a short while
I am already on cloud no.9 (:

did convoc filming yesterday in school.
it turned out to be so much fun!!
in fact before we started i was a little apprehensive. coz i din noe wad i was supposed to do.
actually not knowing what to do it good. coz somehow u will find something to do.
yup. make urself useful. wahhaha.

we had 2 filming crews. and i was like moving form one crew to the other.
And i felt like a pro.
not that i managed to be featured for a short while in the film. hahhaa ( was supposed to act like students with 2 other crew members - as requested by the "creative"director. note the " " :P)
but the experience was quite shiok to feel like an artisite. haha.
but that aside. the best part was to gather more cal-li-fay ( donch noe how to spell it thgh :P)
and to actually do crowd control for a particular scene ( shan't reveal that. haha)
it's so much fun!!

but i realised u have to be patient to be in this area of work.
really patient. coz there's a bit of waiting. like u noe.. u need to wait for the director's "creative cells" to activate ( woo.. some sarcasm there.. :P)
and sometimes u have to wait for the cameramen to find the angle that they want.
not forgetting the NGs!! hahaha. ( i had 2 NGs for my part *bleah)
everything felt so real (:
coz i always have this dream to but in the entertainment in industry as like mayb an actress or singer..
then i realised i can't really act or sing that well. shall leave that for the bathroom. hahah.
But yesterday i recognized the hardwork of all the production crew peeps! salute to u guys (:
it's tough but to me.. it's really satisfying. hee (:

kind of surprised that i happened to be in the same production crew as my faci.
haven't been in touch for her for sometime.
But somehow everytime we meet.. we just talked liked we have alot to catch up.
alwys felt so nice toking to her (:
coz somehow i feel like she's really like me.. characterwise.
of coz we are unique in some ways too. hah.

feel so helpless that i couldn't help her solve her problems.
cooling off period. wad's she supposed to do during this period. she asked.
pains me to see her cry ):
it's like there's this urge to do something for them but i have no clue.
urge.
I asked her to follow her heart.
But how? she asked. she is clueless. just like me.
which i could do something.
but both of them are like my good frens.
had a chat with the other party just now.
he's jus as clueless what to do.
i know he still loves her. coz he's afraid that he cannot give her the happiness she deserved.
And he's afraid that she will suffer if she continues to stay with him.
that's not like him. totally.
he admits he has lost that confidence.
that confidence to fight on. to overcome the obstacles that they both have to face.
surprisingly i managed to give some advice.
i admit i can be a damn good listener but as for advice.. sometimes i aso dun noe what i am saying
coz there are times when i have so many thoughts rushing through my mind that i dun noe what to say and i aso dun noe how to structure it inside my brain. so it will come out distorted and messy
but jus now i thot i did a little better than usual.
i think there are only 3 rules to r/s:
1. reach a compromise to different expectations.
2. talk talk & talk
3. Not taking things for granted.
that's what i gathered from my last r/s.
and i think it's works for all.
It's like some bible or buddha scriptures thingy that is a mus mus for all in all sorts of r/s.
hmm.. i jus hope i have been of some help at least.
that's the least i could do rite.
Both of them have my blessings no matter what decision they make(:

And for me.. i would do whatever it takes to follow these 3 simple rules of the game.
the game called love.

-Fishy loves him. And i hope he knows-

.CHAOTA-FIED.

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