Tuesday, February 14, 2006
okae..today is jus one of those real sucky days. Like once in a blue blue moon.
i noe it's V-day. but that's not the point.
rushed off frm my hse in the morning coz i woke up late. (patron's day yest. ended late)
5 mins late for psych class. hate rushing for lessons.
coz u will be all flustered and hot.
got back my psych midterm. sucky results. bleah.
wanted to say "freak" and muttered the F-word instead. it jus came out so suddenly.argh.
took me a few secs to realise it.
yup got a beating frm amadeo becoz of that. bleah. but he noes i din say it on purpose.
pardon me my guys.
but i noe i am fully responsible for the sucky results.
did study but not enuff. the effort wasn't there.
like wad alvin said i need to squeeze in more time for studies. i have too much commitments.
i luv psych. i dun wan to disappoint dawn.
i need to boycott MSN. Anti-Msner. Huge Huge distractor to me sia.
had to come up with my comms speech for 2mr.
procrastinate. shld stop this procrastinate thingy. it hurts.
my brain cells dead.
gym was the only nice part of my day.
i don't have to think about anything when i worked out.
sweat it out.
finally settled down to do work in lib after gym. satisfied i sticked close to schedule.
completed my comms speech and readings.
okae. my parents discovered i donated blood. crap.
i can't tell lies for nuts. had to admit. arghh.
and i jus started the war of words.
oh well. i din say anything thrgout the whole time.
best to keep quiet.
besides saying me having grown "wings"and ignoring wad my parents say..
most ridiculous thing that they said was donating blood makes u fat.
wadever. arghh.
din even bother to explain or defend myself.
then they started raking up stuff about dragonboat. saying girls shldn't join dragonboat. will get bulky. muscles.
not again.
okae so i am a disobedient daughter now.
thanks. after tryin so hard to listen to them for like how many years.
okae. V-day.
jus another day. din noe it's so hard to find a place to eat dinner.
Wanna keep my single status for now.
like wad alvin says"it's the freedom that u will cherish so much"
yup i noe. the freedom.
and i am not ready to give away my freedom. not now.
i thot i will be ready to give it away. but i noe i haven't found the person to give it to. not yet.
Like what cip says: u are comfortable with me and amadeo. we make u laugh too. but that doesn't mean we are that special one to u. so it's got to take alot more than that.
i noe. i agree.
the feeling's not there. i will noe when it's there.
right now. i like being in the company of my frens. to joke ard with. to mug with. to suan. to have fun with.
arghh. wan today to be over.
looking forward as alwys.
-chao ta girl feels sucky-
.CHAOTA-FIED.
